My Soul

okay, this whole space-thing didn't work out the way, i hoped it would be. i went to him yesterday. with my friend. at 3 o'clock or something like that, she was tired und went to bed, i sat on the couch, watching a music channel and was half asleep, when i felt his hand on my leg.... he wanted to make out, he tried. but i was so scared of my friends return, that i didn't do anything. i just sat there, doing nothing, with his hand on/between my legs....
he was very disappointed, i could see it, when we went to bed.
i have to apologize.... i have to tell him, that i was scared, that my friend returns....
if she wouldn't have been there, i propably would have slept with him... :(
if i would have known, she wouldn't come, i would have kissed him. i wanted to kiss him so badly....

and i just LOVE his smell. i have to know the name of his parfum. it's very masculine... and i would give a LOT for smelling it again... for kissing his neck...
oh no, i have phantasies.....again.

p.s.: the song "flashing lights" from Kanye West will remind me of the time, we almost.... because we listened to it.