Samstag, 21. Februar 2009
snowy messed up day
merete, 16:43h
yesterday sucked!
my sister told my mum about this boy... she's pissed, so i wrote a letter today...
and also:
the guy and my friend had a fight because of nothing... and she ran out. i was in the room with him and didnt know what to do, because i wanted to stay, when i'm honest... but my friend had the car and i couldn't get home without her. so i left, too.
he wrote me later in a chat, that he wanted me to stay and i should come back. i know, what he wanted to do...
well, i couldn't go back, so we wrote a while. he told me, he wanted to end things with my friend... but i'm sure, they didn't break up. she suddenly was back in front of his house, because she "couldn't drive because of all the snow"... yeah, sure...
i want them to be happy, both of them, but i don't think, they ARE happy! they both want love. she wants him. he wants IT.
well, i don't know what to do, it's their choice. it's their life. but i don't want to see her broken. and i want to see him, even though they're not seeing each other.
he's moving to the capital in summer, so he won't be around in a fw months. maybe it's the best, that could happen to them!
i'm scared... because i know, he wants me. for it, not for ever.
and i know, i want him. for it.
but i also know, it would be a mistake. a BIG mistake. the biggest, i'll make. well, maybe not. i dunno.....
we'll see... maybe nothing will happen. maybe my friend and he are together again. okay, they've never been together, it's just an affair.....
oh, my life sucks!
i hope, my mom will see the letter, will read it and won't be pissed any more.
my sister told my mum about this boy... she's pissed, so i wrote a letter today...
and also:
the guy and my friend had a fight because of nothing... and she ran out. i was in the room with him and didnt know what to do, because i wanted to stay, when i'm honest... but my friend had the car and i couldn't get home without her. so i left, too.
he wrote me later in a chat, that he wanted me to stay and i should come back. i know, what he wanted to do...
well, i couldn't go back, so we wrote a while. he told me, he wanted to end things with my friend... but i'm sure, they didn't break up. she suddenly was back in front of his house, because she "couldn't drive because of all the snow"... yeah, sure...
i want them to be happy, both of them, but i don't think, they ARE happy! they both want love. she wants him. he wants IT.
well, i don't know what to do, it's their choice. it's their life. but i don't want to see her broken. and i want to see him, even though they're not seeing each other.
he's moving to the capital in summer, so he won't be around in a fw months. maybe it's the best, that could happen to them!
i'm scared... because i know, he wants me. for it, not for ever.
and i know, i want him. for it.
but i also know, it would be a mistake. a BIG mistake. the biggest, i'll make. well, maybe not. i dunno.....
we'll see... maybe nothing will happen. maybe my friend and he are together again. okay, they've never been together, it's just an affair.....
oh, my life sucks!
i hope, my mom will see the letter, will read it and won't be pissed any more.
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